that's my favorite song my brother has EVER wrote..though old still my favorite. I wish he still would sing it! :)... IT may not mean much to you, but the lyrics to me always cut so deep... so i thought i'd show you....
"--Dear child- come awake from your dreams-Cuz this life is but a mist and it's gone- Wipe away- the sleep from your eyes- and CLING ENTIRELY TO ME!-
HOLD ON angels are ALL around you,
be strong! you know I'm right beside you,
and keep your eyes on the sky!
I know that you don't feel at home- but face THESE STORMS! while the waves are crashing down!-
WE are WAITING for You! We Long with You! So Father come, and take us away!--"
Keep your eyes on the sky! I'll be praying for you! You know who you are! we're going through this journey together, do NOT give up!
My life the past couple weeks has been quite hectic. Making some decisions that needed to be done. As i got off campus for a bit today, after spending the beginning portion of this week in the library. I was in the library more hours than i have in actual classes. If you want to count that that'd be about 5-6 hours a day. (yeup thats right mom!) AS we were driving around these country roads It made me miss home even more. The leaves falling, the different colors, the trees, everything. I love fall and i love spending it with people back home. I miss the people that care, not that these people don't, but it's a different meaning. I miss the laughter, the smiles, the hugs, the tears, the little arguments, my daddys love and joking, my moms beautiful smile and care, my dog, my cousin and best friend Andrea, my aunts, my uncles, my amazing grandparents (love you peepaw! and grams!), My friends, People that I was with all summer, my bed, my car thats now sold! :(. I was reminded of Gods love, and beauty he has over all the earth!
I miss alot of things, I just want you to know that those things will never leave me! I was so reminded of how Mysterious and Great our God really is, I think the point of me blogging is kind of like a journal. I love sitting at a computer and typing away. I love getting all my thoughts out on this...
My life the past couple weeks like i said has just been hectic. I attend a church here called Apex. I NEVER realized how hard it would be to find a church out here. Apex you think would be a modern day looking church after hearing the young pastor preach in chapel. when you walk in it literally reminded me of the church my dad pastored at back in the day. I go with my cousin Ryne and our friend "B Sok" from the bball team. Every sunday we walk in probably 5 or 10 minutes late, and I will say it is usually because of the boys waking up late! anyways, We go sit up in the balcony on the orange and brown pews, in the very last row. It's funny because we, ryne and me, are not the tallest people, but B Sok on the other hand is about 6'5 probably taller. Every week there is some huge distraction around us, Kid crying, people walking back and forth, and yes a woman feeding her new born. If you are wondering why we sit and there and saying duh sit somewhere else idiot! It's because our friend himself does not want to be a distraction. EVerytime though i don't get that distracted. If you know me, i get distracted SO easily!
Every week though God teaches me something. God has been teaching me to wait on his timing, and put everything else aside, and let him take the reins. Sometimes i feel like God is just yelling at me and saying "MEREDITH WAIT PATIENTLY! Don't doubt my plans for you!" Why is it so hard for us to wait? I have no patience! I hate waiting on anything. Lately my heart has just felt such a peace, I've had to go through some things the past week and make some decisions that were way hard for me. Even though i feel like a complete idiot and jerk for doing it, I knew it needed to be done for me to grow in God. He knows what needs to be done, it just sucks feeling the pain from things.
After a talk over nasty hive food today at lunch with my friend MAry Rose, I felt even more of a peace. I think just getting my heart out there and knowing someone is listening and cares helps me so much. Kind of like praying huh? Why can we talk to someone about it but yet not even go to God about it sometimes? I know! it blows my mind too. Getting everything out on the line and just hearing myself talk about it helped alot. God is so great! He knows what he is doing! i don't get why people deny him!.... So mary rose, i know you're out there thanks!
"You have to wait- God's timing- It will happen- God never lets us down-" -chatting with someone! THANKS! :)
Anyways. I think i ramble so much! AS my mom says "Meredith- you don't need to say everything that crosses your mind!" :)
Thanks for reading all!
Peace love and pumpkin lattes! (anything pumpkin flavor for that matter!)
-Mere
Grams, sister, Me, Mom...Love it!
